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i. I fell in love with a girl who catalogued darkness,
sat in her room with the blinds closed and wrote down
187 ways it felt
in all of the different times she couldn't see.
My name was one of them,
#143, ash velvet, and I didn't know what she meant at the time
but the only description she wrote beneath it
was good night for stuffed animals
bad night for worn pillows.

And I'm sorry I made you dream of the rivers.

ii. I fell in love with a girl who never looked in the mirror
but dressed to perfection, somehow
in her blue skirt and black socks
white tennis shoes
and a smile crooked as the bottom side of Indiana –
yeah, I fell in love with a girl
who could never quite get it straight – but hey,
that's alright,
I've never been 100% straight either,

and the one corkscrew curl you have
opens me up like fine wine
each time I see you smile in that cracked bathroom mirror.
Makes me half-drunk,
near-giddy.

iii. I fell in love with a girl who was depressed by Paris,
but loved Italy because she had no expectations,
who came into every relationship with no expectations,
so the only one she could ever be disappointed in
was herself.

And Harry Potter. That girl was
mad-crazy for Harry Potter.

iv. This girl has a name. And I'm not gonna tell it to you
cause you can read it on the chest, scrawled out here
on my tag - my chickenscratch handwriting.
My goddamn beautiful Indiana smile.
THIS IS WHO I AM.

And it's taken me way too damn long to say it.

And thank you to the person who told me that this is good :)
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WolfdogTheKiller Featured By Owner May 17, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Amazing I love your descriptions
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tokikomosoto Featured By Owner May 11, 2014
this had me from line one. amazing imagery btw, though i have to google indiana's "crooked bottom" since i dunno what it looks like :)
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SycamoreSea Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love the tone of this so much, so familiar and somehow dreamy - and the line And I'm sorry I made you dream of the rivers. - so intriguingly beautiful. The part about corkscrew curls and fine wine is also perfect. <3
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YogaTeacher Featured By Owner Jul 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love this more than I understand it, but I understand it enough that it makes the whole world feel different. It hurts in a very good way. Thank you.
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Student Writer
And thank you so much as well :)
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Nullibicity Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I feel so emotional upon reading this! Just WOW. You certainly have a talent for the written word. It stuns and inspires me - leaves me speechless. This frustrates me, because I'm desperately trying to come up with words to fill this comment with! I want to express my love and adoration of this piece. I want to tell you how much I felt this because you were inside of it, and I want to tell you how much I desire to hug you and squeeze until you beat me off of you - unconscious and silly. I think any writer who can make one feel is just a miracle. When I feel words THIS strongly? Gah, I just feel like crying. Thank you for showing the written word some justice. Words are my one true passion, so please know this gratitude comes from the depths of my soul.

I think many people live most of their lives with blindfolds on to certain pieces of themselves. Damn good for you, that you can accept yourself. I am one of those people still coming along on such a journey, but I hope to get there eventually. The fact you've shared yourself so much in this - and by doing so, sharing your hope - it just means so much to be able to read these kinds of emotions. They practically leap off of the page and smack me in the forehead! Lovely, lovely job, dear. I apologize that I'm so inarticulate in expressing my emotions regarding this piece. It was just gorgeous. :rose:
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scribblesinnias Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2013  Student Writer
Beautiful!
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Student Writer
Thanks!
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abominablecake1 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013  Student Digital Artist
This is wonderful<3
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you!
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neonsquiggle Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is wonderful. I just love it.
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much :)
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neonsquiggle Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You are welcome!
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loveyalongtime Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2013   Writer
finally a poem about love with true heart in it
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you so much! :D
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gogocherryrose Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013
oouu it's better than good!

i really enjoyed this! who you are is freakin-wicked-wonderful-beautiful! write more.

:heart:
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2013  Student Writer
I shall post another work immediately, ma'am! :)
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randomlyinspired-21 Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2012  Student Writer
iii. I fell in love with a girl who was depressed by Paris,
but loved Italy because she had no expectations,
who came into every relationship with no expectations,
so the only one she could ever be disappointed in
was herself. (This is my favorite stanza-takes me on an around-the-world trip without the trip!) :love:
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2013  Student Writer
I loved writing that one :) I have realized things about myself in literally every corner of the globe
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randomlyinspired-21 Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013  Student Writer
slr- :huggle:
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flummo Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Student Writer
For some reason this made me really happy and if by 'this is good' you meant the poem, then, of course! It's fucking amazing. But if by 'this' you meant you, well, you're amazing too, whoever, whatever, whenever, wherever you are. :heart: The mood the first stanza set wasn't the one I felt throughout the rest of the poem but that's a plus here, as it took me in an unexpected direction and I love where I went. I love this.
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winterkate Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2012  Student Writer
Aww! I'm glad that this poem made you happy, and that you loved it! I'm really glad to hear that! I'm really happy that the mood shift worked. :) That felt a bit risky.
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Hfeather53 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Oh. My. God. This is one of the sweetest things I've ever read. *fans eyeballs trying not to cry*
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winterkate Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2012  Student Writer
Aww, thank you! You're really amazing :heart:
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Hfeather53 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
nou =)
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winterkate Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2012  Student Writer
:heart:
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moonstruckbyshadow Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I agree I didn't like this poem so much as i loved the feeling and the person behind it expressing themselves.
ii. is pure gold and I will exclaim that to you
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you! Yeah, I didn't feel like it was one of my best-composed works - I was surprised by the number of people who liked it. Thanks for the fave and the compliments :) it's really lovely of you.
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moonstruckbyshadow Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It inspires me to actually post some gutsy expressions of myself for better or worse. No need to thank me for thanking you! :)
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Student Writer
:) Awesome. Hey, if you do - send me a link. I'd like to read it.
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moonstruckbyshadow Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Sure thing. I may very well choose to do so tomorrow
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winterkate Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012  Student Writer
Brilliant!
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moonstruckbyshadow Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Okay I am posting one here now specifically because of the piece of yours I read.
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winterkate Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2012  Student Writer
What's the title? :)
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arabesque-o Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Student Photographer
wow.
the imagery left me speachless.
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you so much! :)
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ChristinaWhispy Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is a great piece of work.
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you so much! Yeah, I was surprised - it's turned out to be really, really popular.
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ChristinaWhispy Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
It is You that is why ^^
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you :) I'll have to write me more often!
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ChristinaWhispy Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I cant wait!!!!
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:iconwinterkate:
winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Student Writer
Haha, you're really sweet :)
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ChristinaWhispy Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
naaah haahaha :blush:
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012  Student Writer
Yaaaah
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DonnieRotton Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012   Writer
I cannot express why I love this poem so much, but I smiled and chuckled with recognition here and there. Beautiful piece
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you so much! I'm glad it made you happy :)
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DearPoetry Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
OMG--I love this beyond words!
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you so much!
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snowjoe72 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I wouldn't really know from experience, but I think it is great to be able to know who you are. A name is just a way to distinguish you from other people. An age is just a simple number made to represent how mature society thinks you should be. However, there are 3 things that I believe represent exactly who a person is.... The words used to describe these three things are heart, soul, and mind.

I refer to the heart as not an internal organ, but a collective group of emotions, love especially, and anything else you can feel without knowing it is there at all.

A soul, is not a better word for ghost. It is the many things that serve as the roots of your being. Values, morals, behavior, personality, talents, goals, anything that sets us apart from everyone else.

Finally, a mind is not the same thing as a brain. It is what dictates decisions and allows us to decipher all of those emotions and such. It tells us how to act on them. It serves as our conscious, telling us what is right and what is wrong in accordance to who we are.

So which one of those is lacking a bit in me? What must i do to make me know for sure who I am?
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winterkate Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2012  Student Writer
'Soul is not a better word for ghost'...that is a lovely line, and you should use it in a poem.

I can't fully answer all of your questions. I don't think anything in you is lacking, though; I think that you don't know yourself until you know your limits. Find your end-places, the spots where you break. Run difficult ethics scenarios in your head, make you admit to yourself all your weaknesses. Allow yourself to acknowledge the good and the bad of who you are. Make a list of your shortcomings.

Make a list of the ways you are beautiful. Chart each day you say something kind to someone. Remember all the good things you have ever done, one by one, like the IRS angels are gonna come and audit you on your backpay for heaven. Realize that you can hate and love yourself at the same time, and that hating parts of yourself does not mean hating yourself as a whole. Love yourself.

That's what works for me, anyways.
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